Hurra det er (snart) efterår...

"I love the fall.  I love it because of the smells that you speak of; and also because things are dying,things that you don't have to take care of anymore, and the grass stops growing." -  Mark Van Doren

Her til morgen havde jeg alle vinduer åbne. Det var piv koldt, men på denne årstid er der en helt særlig lidt bidende luft. (Jeg tror måske at den kommer lidt tidligt i år.) I hvertfald elsker jeg denne årstid.

For mig er det en årstid byder på:

• helt fantastiske farver udenfor
• man skal putte sig under dynen eller ind til kæresten
• sterinlys i vinduerne
• suppe
• varme i stuen
• Fordybelse og ro

Jeg synes det er så hyggeligt. Folk kigger på mig som om jeg er skør, men jeg bliver virkelig glad, når det er efterår. Tilgengæld kan jeg godt have the sommerblues...

MEN jeg er også nærmest født i snedrive i Nord Canada og kan blive lykkelig når jeg kigger ud af vinduet og ser at det har sneet. Så det er med et stort smil, varmt hjerte og kolde tæer, at jeg byder efteråret velkommen med åbne arme. : )

Hvordan har du det med årets kommende skift?

RIP iPhone...

Jeg har taget en drastisk beslutning og har fået aflivet min iPhone. Inden jeg bliver anklaget for blasfemi eller ligende, så hjalp Lilli processen godt på vej, ved at døbe den kære iPhone i et glas koldt vand sidste år... Den har ikke virket helt optimalt siden.

Nå, men jeg har følt, at det at være online 24/7, var med til at gøre mig en anelse fraværende herhjemme og i andre sociale sammenhænge. Den blev en forstyrrende faktor og jeg var konstant på arbejde, på facebook, på hotmailen, bare PÅ.

Og hvad gav det mig egentlig? Som min kæreste spurgte, er det virkelig nødvendigt at tjekke mail kl. 2 om natten, du har jo alligevel ikke tænkt dig at svare... næ han har jo ret.

Jeg skulle tage et ansvar og da jeg ved at jeg ikke ville kunne styre det ved skemaer og forbud osv. Så, er den nu skiftet ud med en Nokia (dog ny), der ikke kan en fis, og jeg har så meget mere tid lige pludselig. Har en smule abstinenser og synes jeg er udenfor klubben af smarte iPhone folk... Men jeg har stadig min Mac! :)

Det er så skønt at være offline og ikke slave af den lille djævel. Jeg går ikke helt amish, men jeg tror på at jeg kan leve uden. Og der er flere tiltag på vej...

Jeg kunne tænke mig at høre om jeres tanker om generation smart phone!?

Letting go...

So, this summer has been a time of great change. Not so much around me, but in me. What do I wish for me and my family, what do I want for my business, and what do I want to spend my time working on. I love writing in english, and I truely feel that I have something to say. However, I have had to make a decision. What is this blog and why do I spend time writting. And for the moment I have made the choice to change this blog from an english version to a danish.

It has been a hard choice, as it means letting go of a dream I have had with this blog and what I wanted it to do. But as a lot of you know, once you do let go of something that is "weighing you down" it can feel so liberating. I have always been the kind of person who wants to change the world. I am sure I will... :) But I have to start closer to home - with me... he he. We will see how it goes.

So from now on you can read this blog in Danish. Thank you all for leaving your comments, and sharing your thoughts, it has meant the world to me.

Here's to new dreams and moments unfolding.

xox Carina

FUZZY

This week I went to an amazing concert with Grant Lee Buffalo. It has been ages since my partner and I have been to a gig. Music has always been a really big part of my life and our relationship. Becoming a mom of course slowed things down a bit, very naturally - anything going on after 9pm has been pretty non-existing... But even before my daughter was born, I started to stay in more, didn't really enjoy being social, couldn't stand noise, crowds etc. As the stress level in my life rose, and anxiety attacks joined the game - I closed me up. I have been so scared of dying, that I stopped living freely.

My meditation practice has been a great part of me opening myself up to life again. And it feels amazing. Standing there listening to amazing music, having a beer, standing close to the man I love, Grant Lee Phillips all of the sudden asked the crowd "Are you affraid of life". I could honestly say that at that moment in time I was truely not. And for the first time in ages I truely mean it.

Enjoy a little "FUZZY".

Getting lost in the woods.

This summer I needed a break from the city, the internet and my iPhone! My daughter and I took off, with some of my family to Sweden. In the middle of no where, a little house just sat there waiting.

It was so peaceful and the air so fresh, that I instantly felt at ease.

The past few years going through time with serveral anxiety attacks a day, becoming a mom and struggling with feeling sane enough for it..., and opening up to my sensitivity more, living in the city has become a bit of a stress factor. Living in constant noise doesn't have great effect on my system. So I knew this would be just what I needed.

Even the shower was amazing, standing butt naked with a full front view of the woods. And no peeping Toms.

The toilet being very good for the environment, was not so much a place for meditation...

This trip reminded me of the importance of re-charging, creating space in my life, and that although full of life, the city and being online ALL THE TIME, does have a negative effect on me and my stress level. And even better, to my big surprise of course, the city and my partner DID survive without me for a while...

The blog post is kicking off the blog, again. so this fall will be time for writing and hopefully interacting with you all.